2023-09-14
I love…
anxiety.
?
Is this that feeling?
I guess not the negative kind-
but that feeling…
The goosebumps, the jitters,
The weighted breathing.
The suffocating weight-
It’s excitement.
Anticipation?
But becomes nerves,
I’m hyperventilating.
You’re exciting me~
Will we kiss or will I pop!
It’s uncomfortable.
Right now, it’s comfortable
I like it right now.
I won’t like it next time.
I’m scared.
Give me the attention that comes with this.
I’ll close myself off.
Ignore me every time I’m like this.
My organs are static pop rocks-
My stomach liquifies.
Creamy!
Scary.
Exciting.
Terrifying.
No one notice me but thrust me in the spotlight.
I want to be seen so vulnerable,
Point and laugh,
Or admire.
Let me indulge in this embarrassment,
let the pressure crush me,
The unbearable weight.